"I had forgotten how the beginning of writing a book--a first draft--is such a hard slog forward step by step into the darkness. I'm finding in myself, with the space of time and place I've been given here, the resilience and determination to keep moving forward and find that though I often have to stop and think awhile before I have a clear picture of of the next scene or sequence of events, if I just keep going, the story opens itself up in front of me.
"Writing requires so much faith. It's like life itself--we are presented with the choice to believe that a great good is ultimately authoring and guiding our story despite apathy or ugliness or inability or pure evil intent on the part of ourselves or those around us, and that this good knows all about the difficulties and is actually weaving them into the fabric of the story it's making for each one of us. If we believe this to be true, we walk forward, looking for the rescue, the meaning, the transformation, or the next fortuitous circumstance, trusting that all we need do is walk into what has been prepared for us, like a character in any good story. If we don't believe, we only see the chaos and the darkness and the indifference and we lose heart, thinking the great task of pulling significance from it all is solely upon our own narrow shoulders and so can only be a doomed enterprise."